Wow. Just wow. What a difference a day makes.
I honestly did not expect to hear anything more from the organization from which we had received the waiting children DVDs. I figured the ball was sort of in my court now that we were provided with the pre-application and the functioning discs. I had the occasion to find the Bible verse that I inserted beneath the masthead of the blog today and should have realized that something would be on the horizon.
I received an e-mail from the woman I had originally contacted from the organization when I was seeking the password to the private photolisting of waiting kids. She thanked us for our continued interest in M. and then recounted for us her interactions with M. when she met her in May and visited her again in August. She also mentioned that one other family have since expressed an interest in learning more about M. and that she would answer any and all questions as we continue to deliberate.
I took the invitation and sent her a LONG e-mail outlining the three, remaining general areas of concern for my husband as well as the specific questions that each of these categories had generated. I knew it was a ton of information and apologized for that, but figured she might still entertain some of the ideas.
She replied to my e-mail not long after I'd hit "send" saying that all our concerns were ones that she understood and had dealt with previously. She asked for our phone number and if it would be okay for her to call me tomorrow. I provided it readily and told her when I'd be home to receive her call.
Oh. My. Gosh.
Wow.
I don't know what will happen. I honestly do not. What I do know, though, is that I have never felt closer to God than I have during the past couple months. I have never felt more like I am on the right path than I have in the last few months. I am happy. I am at peace. I am not borrowing trouble for once. I'm not angry about the state of the world or just the general state of my world.
It's weird. I'm less than two weeks away from finding out whether or not I passed my licensing exam. I'm less than six months away from my husband deploying to a war zone. I'm busier with my children than I have ever been. And yet, I've not felt this settled, confident or happy in years, literally.
I'm not even second guessing my lack of cynicism or reservations. THAT's uncanny in my world. And, I'm loving every minute of it!
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