At 7 a.m. this morning, I found out that I passed my state's bar exam. I received my score report in the mail and am pleased with my performance. I passed, for crying out loud, and yet I'm dissecting my performance! Sheesh!
It's a very surreal experience as I took this exam at the end of July and have waited this long for results.
The waiting is definitely the hardest part...Tom Petty is so profound.
I am so hoping that the director of the NGO replies to my e-mail about M3 today...I'm obsessively refreshing my e-mail inbox. So far, nothing.
I'm scared she will tell me that the other family has already filed their application.
I'm scared she will read too much into my inquiry for an update and determine that we aren't committed enough at this point to reward us with the gift of time to work out all the kinks.
I'm scared she won't e-mail me back today and I won't know what's going on for the entire weekend.
One thing is for certain. This has made me antsy. It has punctuated for me how much I already love this little girl. How I want to have her home with us and not in the orphanage.
I hope very soon that I will be able to add another category to this blog. "Before We Began" is all well and good, but I'm ready to move to the next step.